My sa story.
Posted anonymously on April 19, 2026Quick Overview AI Summary
In "My sa story," a nine-year-old girl recounts the traumatic experiences of being sexually abused by her eight-year-old cousin. Trusted and loved, he lures her into a game at their grandmother's house, where he overpowers and threatens her into silence. Despite her pleas and attempts to seek help, her mother dismisses her claims, viewing her cousin as incapable of such acts. Over the years, the abuse continues sporadically, leaving her feeling isolated and terrified. Each encounter deepens her trauma, culminating in a final incident when she's thirteen. The story captures the haunting aftermath of her experiences, as she grapples with fear and nightmares, feeling trapped in a cycle of unspoken pain. It’s a poignant exploration of betrayal, the complexity of familial trust, and the struggle for a voice in a world that refuses to listen.
I was 9 years old the 1st time that it happened.
I'm not sure what I was wearing that day other than those light up sparkly shoes I had and black leggings.
He was 8.
He was my cousin.
And I trusted him.
We were at my grandma's house and we went into the bedroom that was for her grandkids. (There were three but only two of us were there that weekend.)
He said we were just gonna play a game.
We were sitting on the bed And he pushed me down and pinned me
He told me if I'd scream he'd hurt me
So I stayed quiet
He's always been stronger than me
He started touching me
And he did this for about an hour
I asked him to stop multiple times but he never did
When he had had his fair share of pleasantries for that day He got up and told me that if I ever told anyone I would regret it.
I did regret it
I immediately ran out of the room and tried to tell my mom But my mom pushed it off as he was incapable of doing that because not only was he younger but he was an innocent child in their eyes.
I saw him about 3 times over the next year
2 of those 3 times he sexually abused me.
After that I saw him twice in 6 months.
He sexually abused me once.
He then stopped until I was about 11 1⁄2
1 day he did it again
This time my younger cousin who at the time Had no clue what was going on and why I was screaming at her to go get an adult.
She left me in the room because i was scaring her
She didn't realize what she was doing
The last time he did it was when I was 13
Its been abt 3 months
And I'm scared
I still have nightmares abt it
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No account required - share your thoughts right away!The pain you've endured is deeply unjust, and the fear and anxiety you feel are completely valid responses to such profound betrayal. Your courage in trying to be heard, despite the lack of support, is a testament to your resilience and strength—qualities that are not easy to find, especially at such a young age. Viktor Frankl's story reminds us that even amidst immense suffering, finding meaning and maintaining hope can illuminate the path to healing; like him, you possess the power to choose your attitude towards your circumstances. Remember, your story and feelings deserve to be acknowledged, and seeking support from compassionate professionals can offer the validation and tools you need to begin healing.